hmm.. having slpless nitez again.. omg.. pls ket me slp.. i still gotta attend orientation ltr.. 2 days liao.. last nitez aledi nv slp hopin mayb i can slp all e way till mornin bt hw come i still awake here.. wat e fuck happened to me?? im reali very tired, eyes very slpy bt hw come?? who can help me nw?? dun tell me cuz baby nt here n i cant slp.. if dats e case, im gg die first cuz he will only be back on sun.. hmm.. or izzit bcuz i felt lonely?? last time at tpy i can slp leh bt y here cant.. juz dun understand.. hopefully ltr i switch off comp, im able to slp.. all till e way till 7am pls.. my gdness..

im juz back frm e airport.. send baby n his frn off to jpn for a wk.. so nice he's gg on trip.. shopping trip.. comin bk on sun.. (: and me left alone in sg.. hmm.. tml will be reporting to work at ocbc.. hopefully everythg goes smoothly.. hehe.. gg to bed soon liao.. cuz gotta wake up early n prepare.. update again soon..

yeah.. my darlin SFA24E is bk.. recovered bt smhw still nt pretty done.. e cashcard iu seems faulty.. did i hurt e iu wen it crashes?? hmm.. abit wierd wen i drove last nitez.. e seat too low.. e rented car e workshop lend us is much higher n comfy.. i din say my darlin nt comfy.. its like 2 different feelin.. haha.. happy to see it bk and park at e carpark.. wahahahaha!!

well another 4 more days to let me rest and get bk to work liao.. strting my job on e 28th tis mth.. new job, new envoirnment, new colleagues and new future.. lolz.. Monday met up wif sweetie Mei at bugis.. went to e japanese sweets buffet.. hope she enjoy there.. lotz of dessert over there.. specialize in dessert.. after she gv birth, ask her there again.. cuz rt nw she cant eat too much sweet.. bt i knw after she gv birth, she sure wanna eat sashim.. haha.. cuz she cant eat nw mah.. lolz.. anyway, bless she haf a smooth delivery.. i wanna see her "xiao wang, Zucchas".. hope i din get e spelling wrong.. hahaha!! Tuesday went to my bestie hse.. bought my god daughter a lantern so went there acc her walk walk wif e lantern.. she's so cute.. bt wen i reached her hse, she like very scared me.. baby said cuz so long den see one time of cuz nt familiar lar.. meanin i muz go often.. hmm.. okay, will plan.. haha.. gt videos on her takin e lantern n some pics.. nt here bt on fb.. saw her remind me of damien.. haha.. its reali very long since i last saw damien.. missed him so muchie.. wanna go see him bt distance wise its like, omg.. haha.. wanna buy him a lantern too bt.. haiz.. saw him takin lantern too on fb.. hope he enjoys yah..

baby gg jpn next mon till sun.. went wif his group of frn.. meanin he nt able to send me on my first day of work.. omg.. hmm, nvm den.. he aso missed out 2nd oct COCO LEE concert.. had asked precious to go wif me.. :) awaiting awaiting awaiting.. haha.. tis few days kept raining.. haiz.. wanna go out aso spoilt mood.. hmm..

Everythg had changed frm tis moment on.. Including our personality.. We no longer holding e same string anymore.. E only thg dat wont chg is scars n hurts.. Scars will always be scars n hurts will always remain hurts.. We did had happy moments tgt wen i browse thru all e photos we took tis few yrs.. Bt happy moments is forever short.. Thru out all tis yrs tgt, quarrels n fights stand 80%.. N e rest of e 20% being normal.. Probably i no longer e Wendy he used to knw n he no longer e Lionel i used to knw.. We both haf differents wants frm each other.. 他要的是个能够体谅和谅解的女友而我要的是能够抽空时间陪我的男友.. Tis is e difference.. Mayb cuz of e differences, we dun seems click.. Bt anyway, it doesnt matter to me anymore.. I finally realise love is nt everythg.. U gain nw, u will lose it e next moment.. Lk rt nw wat im feelin....

today is a bz day.. woke up early at 8am.. went to prepare den to ubi fetch my mum n precious to my 2nd uncle hse.. as today gt an weddin event to attend.. my cousin getting married.. and of cuz, aunties uncles came askin me "wen am i getting married".. omg.. gv me another 2, 3 yrs time bah.. after my 2nd uncle hse, some came over to my hse see see look look.. dey love tis hse too.. hehe.. probably will come over on cny.. haha!!

today split out something i shdnt.. wen i was toking to my uncles n aunties on precious r/s, i accidentally split out dat e gal actuali is his admirer frm ages ago.. hmm..

Precious:

i doesnt wanna tell u is cuz i knw u will haf tis kinda of thinkin.. wat spare tyre, wat nv loved u b4.. all tis is u think urself.. rt nw its nt impt anymore.. as ur godma, aunties n uncles said, its glad u get to see his true colours nw rather dan ltr.. all tis had past and dun think so much liao.. all these, we will haf to get thru.. mayb tis is wat called life.. as for come bk, it wont.. so stop dreaming of him or havin anymore hope.. no use liao.. its time u reali put him dw n start afresh on ur own life.. stop carrying him ard.. i knw its difficult bt tis is wat u nd to go thru.. wen heng left me, i aso tot i wont get out of it.. bt nw u see me.. arent i getting fine wif my life.. think ahead.. ur future is still long.. y bcuz of tis bastard made urself suffer.. silly u rt.. stand up, prove to him dat since u dunno hw to appreciate me, i can find a beta one who knw hw to aoppreciate.. show n prove it to him.. made him realise he's still a loser in e end.. understand?? if i can do it, y nt u..

intend to rest for awhile b4 heading to e banquet at hilton hotel.. bt smhw smthg happened to my xmm.. headache for her lor.. hope she can settle her stuffs soon.. think carefully n decide.. hmm.. another 5 workin days and im free for 1 wk den to my new job on e 28th.. haha!! so fast anthoer few more mths comin to end of yr liao.. tis yr din reali do anythg wor.. sianz.. every yr aso din do anythg.. haha!! okay okay.. shall pen off here cuz eyes tired liao.. bye everyone.....

FINALLY!! finally i gt my iphone 4.. thks baby so muchie!!!!! so happy.. muackz..

HEADACHE!! BACKACHE!! all come at one time.. sianz.. hmm.. these few days his kids been stating wif us.. since sat nitez till now.. so noisy lor.. dunno lor.. like nt reali prepared to stay wif dem.. kept askin him to bring them bk.. reali sometimes, cant stand them lor.. still prefer alone at hm at night.. at least gt freedom.. nt like now, haiz.. watch tv, sit massage chair, etc.. tv non stop playin.. dunno wen gg to shut off.. bring assessment and nt gg to do it.. dunno bring for wat.. baby aso lar.. bring them back and yet leave it to me.. juz pat pat ass and off to work.. so pissed n nt happy.. making e whole hse so messy, dirty and sticky.. dunno who gt sweaty legs lor.. e whole floor is like, wtf.. haiz.. if they are gd, i reali dun mind.. bt e prob is they are nt.. at tis age, arent they behaving well?? bt no lor.. kept disturbing each other, say each other etc.. so sick of them.. dun even wanna bothered abt them.. kept stayin upstair.. haiz.. i reali wanna my life back lor.. hmm..

yippee!!! meeting my babes n sweetie ltr on at bugis.. dinner den off for drinks.. finally can go out after so many days rotting at hm.. haha.. all thks to e mc.. imao.. gg bk work on mon.. is it a happy thing or....

well, tis post might post some of e accident pics of baby's wife taken at e workshop.. see liao so heart pain.. hmm..

accident happened on e 28th aug ard 2215.. near eunos exit towards eunos flyover.. 6 cars chain accident.. fyi, im only driving at e speed of 70 to 70 plus nt exceeding 80 on inner lane.. 1 car distance frm e front vehicle as i noticed it kept on braking.. n it suddenly ebrake so i brake.. managed to stop bt somehw e taxi behind me cant.. and bump into my rear making my vehicle bump into e front vehicle rear.. e impact is so damn strong dat i hit my head on e car head rest.. nt once bt thrice.. cuz behind me there's 3 more cars.. WTF!! was so shocked and dun even knw wat to react.. felt giddiness and images blur for a while.. calm myself dw first, gt bk my images b4 i gt off frm e car.. by den, im e last to gt dw.. even nd help frm ppl.. hmm..its such a terrible experience for me.. first accident in my whole 5 yrs of licence.. haiz..

e front of e car..



and e rear of e car..



can see hw damaged e rear of e car is.. rt nw, i still nt able to bring up my courage to drive.. even wen there's someone to guide.. i tik it nds to take time bah.. even baby is worried for me if i wanna drive.. and one more thing.. he told me he gg to chg his car to a bigger version.. as in cuz his civic is 1.8 and he wanna chg to audi or lexus which is 2.0 above.. slight bigger n longer.. faint.. will i wanna drive again?? OMG!! anyway i knw i nd to forget abt e accident.. bt its reali nt dat easy.. and u knw wen i get off frm e car, i saw a baby infront of e car i bump into.. my goddness.. i cant imagine hw's e baby.. i only knw e baby kept on crying.. hope e baby is alrite nw.. :(

hmm.. mayb its juz nt my year on 2010.. hopefully everything will goes well for me till e end of 2010.. blessed me.. :)

RECOVERING !!!

TO ALL MY DEAR FRN AND BESTIES, IM RECOVERING.. dun worried abt me anymore.. Recovering.. Yippe!! sorry to made u guys worried.. thks and reali appreciate all e concerns be it phone calls or text msges..

hmm.. although im recoverin bt still gonna mc till end of tis wk.. so bored at hm.. woke up, comp, watch tv, eat, slp, comp, watch tv.. everyday is like wah piah.. so bored so bored so bored!! bt gg bk work, its gonna pissed again by some idiotic auntie.. shit.. juz nw during evenin, my XMM called me and complain to me.. its like dat PMS auntie bullyin her wen im nt ard.. shit her.. gg to teach her something wen im bk.. hahahahahaha!! so miss my XMM.. poor gal.. hopefully i can see her wen im bk.. hmm.. anyway, im leaving e company on e 17th tis mth.. 2 more wks to go.. hurray!! reporting to my new job on e 28th aso tis mth.. haha!! bk to wat im expert at.. lolz!! shall update again yah..